echoes of the weekend
still lingering
lots of sleep on saturday
{along with a migraine}
followed by lots of editing on sunday.
back to work today
but first
another appointment with a specialist
another round of tests

the cat ripped open
the chicken i forgot in the sink
last night
and left a chunk of bloody thigh
on the floor

i found of picture of our dog
mixed in with the wedding photos
i was editing
last night
and it put me over the edge
i never thought losing hobbes would feel this.
i never thought i would cry this hard
that i would feel this empty and guilty and
regretful for the times i said
i wish i didn't have a dog.