ch-ch-changes...

i'm considering switching to
typepad....
i don't know...
i want a change...
i'm scared to lose all that i have already done though...
any comments from anyone that uses
typepad?
or another one that someone can recommend?

or maybe i should just stick where i am...
sigh...
i dunno...
i'm on the fence.

friday's list


this sunrise...
kids not crying any more than usual, if not any less...
no mail, which meant...no bills!
half an hour of stolen quiet time to spend with an oprah magazine...
a fushia and red handmade valentine from six...
six's comment "i love you as much as i can love you"...
a finished lime green head kerchief knit by me...
a supportive conversation with my husband about all the things he thinks
i am capable of...
the promise of the weekend ahead, gloriously unspoken for, unplanned, mine...

happy friday
:)


this is the bandana/kerchief experiment that i am currently working on...
i'm pretty happy with the colors
and can't wait to finish it.
sorry for the poor quality pictures...
i wanna new camera! wah. wah.

the other thing i can't wait for?
friday.
actually...
friday night.
friday at roughly 5:15 to be precise.
this week cannot end fast enough.
in case you haven't guessed
or anticipated
today sucked.

sucked.
sucked.
sucked.

heres to hoping that tomorrow is a fresh start.
i need one.

speaking volumes...


i just wrote my morning pages and a big
theme today is "what do i want to do
with my life" yet again...

i met with my instructors from my early childhood
education course today and a big theme
of the conversation revolved around,
(you guessed it)
"what does geekgirl want to be
when she grows up"

then i read simple abundance tonight
and it spoke volumes to me...

"Today take a real risk that can change your life:
start thinking of yourself as an artist and your
life as a work-in-progress. Works-in-progress
are never perfect. But changes can be made
to the rough draft during rewrites. Another
color can be added to the canvas. The film
can be tightened during editing. Art evolves.
So does life. Art is never stagnant. Neither
is life. The beautiful, authentic life you are
creating for yourself and those you love is
your art. It's the highest art. "Since you are
like no other being ever created since the
beginning of time, you are incomparable,"
writer Brenda Ueland reminds you."

what i have taken from this
is that i should not be hard on myself
for not knowing what i want to do...
i should be happy that i am fluid
and open-minded and full of ideas...
i should be looking at it as a positive
rather than a negative...
and then,
i should be acting on some of those ideas.

synchronicities...

i have been reading simple abundance
along with doing the artist way book...
and it is funny to me the same themes are showing up
but framed in a different light...

AW has morning pages,
SA has inner dialogue done in stream of consciousness
(which is how i do morning pages also)

AW has artist dates,
SA has a list of suggestions at the back of each month
of things that you can do during the month...
i have been using some of these suggestions
as my artists dates.

AW had the reading deprivation week,
SA suggests going a day without reading or watching tv...
the whole idea in SA or how i interpreted it
was to stop listening to the opinions of others
(whether it be news or tv or newspapers or gossip columns)
so that you could listen more deeply
to yourself and find your own opinions on things.
When i thought about this concept, i realized how
much of an on-the-fence person i can be sometimes...
how i can be not so much a black or white but
always-negotiating-the-grey-kind-of-person...

i guess what i am saying in a round-about way
is that i am enjoying reading simple abundance
along with artist's way...they compliment each other nicely...
they play well together...
and in my line of work, i'm always looking for
people that play well together...
:)

i had one other little synchronicity that i thought
was interesting enough to note...
when i was in grade five, we knew that we were
going to get a certain teacher for grade six.
we dreaded it.
we wrote a petition at the end of grade five
to convince the powers-that-be to let us continue
on our educational path with the teacher we
currently had.
we could hear our prospective teacher yelling at his
students daily and knew that he was very cross.
he would also be our first male teacher.
we were terrified.

but we had him for grade six, despite our best efforts not to
and, as it turned out, he was the best teacher i ever had.

i told him that one day in the mall where i worked.
he didn't remember me because alzheimers had begun to set in
but i felt good because i got to tell him.
he died a couple of years later.

yesterday i picked up a peter gzowski book at
the used bookstore and debated whether or not
to buy it...i opened the front cover
and there was his name...
as the previous owner...

i bought the book.