trivial tuesday

well..
things are still kind of up in the air
for me,
decisions have been made
and steps have been taken
but they have not led to any
tangible resolution
yet
but i am feeling better about things...

i know this all sounds very cryptic.

it is nothing really, really serious...
it is more of something that is hard for me
because although it affects me directly,
i also feel that whatever actions i choose
to alleviate my own situation
may cause stress for someone else
which i don't want to do
but may have to
whether i want to or not.

so.
anyway.

in lighter news,
here is the blanket that i have been
working on since SEPTEMBER
that was supposed to be a CHRISTMAS PRESENT
but ended up being a bag with
various unfinished pieces and a tag
attached reading "please remember
the importance of
good intentions"


the color is way off in the first two pics,
you can really only see the true green of the blanket
in the last pic.

now just to sew in all the ends.
ack.

sigh.

i don't feel much like blogging
or posting
or writing
or reading
or knitting
or talking
or working
or sharing
or leaving the house.

this week has been kind of
stressful for me
and i feel that making the decision
to move forward is a painful one
yet i know it has to be done.

but i've never been good with change.

sigh.

bear with me.
i'm sure this will pass.

happy early birthday, dad!

my dad's birthday is coming up
the end of february
however, both of my parents
will be living it up viva las vegas
during that time
so we are celebrating today...

i made him a card


the card is the robot himself...
the paper behind is just a background for the picture...
i wanted to have it that the arms and legs would move
and hurrah! they do!
i am so making more of these...

now just to figure out how to put it in an envelope.
heh.

prose-ery thursday

i should feel light, but i feel heavy. heavier. heavy with regret.
regret of words said. regret of secrets told. of memories skewered
and memories sold. of a life line now not so much mine to unfold.

of loss of control.

i've handed over the reins. they are no longer mine. the
distinction between offering and advantage became too
blurry of a line. i have slid out from underneath your thumb.


(the prompt was prose. my mood was dark.)

happy valenties day :)

57 heart shaped cookies,
3/4's with sprinkles
1/4 with red icing.

57 school valentines
signed and sealed
and waiting
for their moment of glory
in a plastic ziplock bag.

6 hand drawn
beribboned
valentines
for
playschool.

2 paper bag
valentine
mailboxes
constructed.

red ribbons
tied
onto
ponytails.

prerequisite
pink and red
clothing
for all family members.

day documented
and
blogged about.

mission complete.