red rash...

hmmmm
my 5 yr old just came in
and he is
covered
in a red rash
that my husband thinks might be heat rash
and i really don't know
what the hell it is...
its not itchy
but he looks pale
and tired
and has a headache

i hate things like this
uncertainty
and worry...

sigh

hurray for sunshine...

its sunny out its sunny out its sunny out
:)
when its rainy i feel lethargic and slow
but when its sunny...
i feel like i could pack the whole house
in just one day
i can leap tall buildings
and do alllll the laundry
i am immortal i can dodge bullets and
make a nutritious lunch
baha
i can also snap back to reality

move over hasbro....

cause my five year old son is going to be the next
inventor of popular games---

evidence?
just heard in living room-
"hey, wanna play jokey-joke-joke-joke-jokey-joker?"
which consisted
( from what i could observe)
of him sitting on the arm of the couch
and the three yr old girl i look after (princess)
trying to push him off....

pure genius he is

feeling much better about life in general...heh

went to the new house yesterday
and instead of finding yet another bill we can't afford to pay
i found a catalogue from sears on the step
AND a catalogue from vesseys seeds
in the mailbox
yay...
so now i am content to spend my quiet spots of this rainy and dark
thursday
daydreaming and planning
what and where and when to plant...
yay
:)

what the hell....

why am i so bloody well damn cranky
i feel like banging my head against the wall
i'm going to make a doctors appointment
i just should not feel this tired
and snarky
but damn it i do
and i'm trying not to
but damn it i am anyway

what the hell.