1001 posts

i have posted here
1001
times...
this blows my mind.

i have coming here,
to this page,
cutting open veins
and untying knots,
analyzing, compromising
promising, listing
loving and hating
wishing and missing
since
april 2005.

oh.
and have you seen this?
sigh

til debt do us part...

i am reading
and was surprised by
some of the questions
she suggests you ask yourself...

things like
what matters to you
what to you want...what do you dream
what makes you happy
what is the one thing you feel defines who YOU are
who do you respect...and why
where do you wish you were in your life
what do you think the future holds

i spent about two hours on this on Saturday morning,
tucked up warm in bed
with a mug of sugary cinnamony tea
and thought about these questions.

i have been struggling to get to the page
{pretty obvious by the scarcity of my posts}
and want to get back in the saddle, back on track
get going again
and thought i might use this as a bit of
jumping point...
something that i can look back on
and hopefully
see how far i have come.



two posts in one day!!

ok...

i know i already posted today but
my little girl is competing
on our own local maritime idol
and i am so proud
and wanted to share her video here...
if you like her, feel free to go vote for my girl...
i'd really really really really really appreciate it...

here is her video 



but you can go here to vote!

Thanks so much...did i mention that i really really really appreciate it!?

today i am

today... i am here...

today... i am breathing slowly
and breathing deeply
trying to find my way back
to me
again

today... i am slowly sipping
french vanilla black tea
with a handful of sugar
{quite literally, a handful}

today...i am giving feist a chance
and finding
that i like it

today...i am aware of the
leaves blowing outside my window
and that
although i know i should be
doing laundry
and getting groceries
my heart wants to stay in
this spot
by the window
daydreaming
about christmas crafts
and editing wedding photos
while listening to the
wind rattle
the window screens.


tuesday truths...

  • i dropped my hand-me-down-already-cracked-can't-talk-on-it-can-only-text-on-it iphone and shattered the glass front
  • the cat knocked my husband's plate of food off the cupboard...on purpose.
  • i am settling into fall
  • i am nervous for 16...she is participating in a local version of american idol tomorrow night...i think my heart is pounding more erratically than hers...she is as cool as a cucumber.
  • i am loving this series...one episode left to go...i'm kind of sad to come to the end
  • but i have started this series...i think i'm hooked.