i should be in bed...{nablopomo day 25}

day 25 of nablopomo
and i am just under the wire
with only an hour to spare...
typing this when i should really be
in bed...


today has been a better day
and it was nice to get all that support...
sometimes things just don't want to add up.
but today was sunny
and bright and smooth...
and i wish i could put it in my pocket
and save it for the next time
things go so horribly wrong
that i find myself
laying on my bed
sobbing into my pillow like a kid...
thinking it's just. not. fair.

:O)

the leaves are leaving...{nablopomo day 24}

fallen for you/ holding on

a photo collaboration with adorable liz elayne

and if you would like to see more,
knock on this door.
they would love to have you stop by for a visit...

that said
i also need to say
that this has been the most
horrible kind of day.
a might-be-taking-it-the-wrong-way
but-also...might-not-be
statement in an email,
a coat bought for 13 on sale
that turned out to be too small
and she doesn't like it,
fatty, greasy supper just because it was fast,
a doctors appointment that ran half an hour later
than it should have,
forgot to buy a mat for the doorway
now i have to contend with wet socks still,
a slow leaking tire,
and
worst of all
i missed the santa claus parade....
i got to hear it
and see the floats at the end of my street
as i was dragging in stupid over priced groceries
and kicking randomly at lumps of snow.

i hate today.


the story of the green {kermit} coat...{nablopomo day 23}




i first saw the
kermit-the-frog-green
coat when i was
about 18...

i was shopping with my
at-the-time boyfriend...
my first ever real boyfriend
i might add...
{who went on to teach me that
love can really suck and not to change
yourself to fit into someone else's
jigsaw puzzle of life, but that is
a whole other post...}

so.
the coat.

i immediately fell in love.

it was 350.00.

so out of my price range.

but,
because some people buy
awesome gifts
to make up for what a
jerk
they can regularly be,
i received the coat for christmas.

i wore that coat all the time...
i was known for that coat...

and i think that is part of why i
continue to hold onto it...
not because of sentimental reasons
regarding who i received it from
{far from it}
but because it reminds me of me,
of me then...and how far i've come
and even though i had made myself small
in that one relationship
i also let myself stand out
in that kermit-coat.

friday i'm in love {nablopomo day 21}


~13 had her first showband concert last night...
she got up on that stage in front of an auditorium
full of people and sang...a little of it solo...
this blows me away...
and was so calm and cool...
not a hint of emotion
{although she assured me later that she was nervous
for the first one...they performed 3 times that day}
i was so heartbreakingly proud.
and happy for her...this was something that she
really really wanted to do...
and she did it.

~having my parents at the concert...
and my dad, being his typical self...
reading the song names out loud,
very loud...in his deep voice...when
all else was silent...heehee...

~green jujubes

~that i was prepared to be disappointed
in greys anatomy last night
and i was so not disappointed...
yeah, the izzie and denny thing is a little
weird and dragging on
but callie...
that line she said to mark
about her life right at the beginning
of the show
was excellent
in my own opinion...
i wish i could find it word for word...
it was perfect.
{and here is where i start to wonder
if maybe i am not a little too invested
in the lives of the interns at seattle grace}
{and i reassure myself that no.
it is not a soap opera.
not really.
it's on at night.
soap operas are on at three.
like another world.}

happy friday!