tuesday night...


things are looking up.

i am caught up on almost all of the editing...
people have been contacted, people are happy...
i am happy...

thinking about taking the plunge
and getting a table at a local bridal show...
yet i feel like i am totally not ready
and it's in about a week
but then i think
i know i could pull it together,
i work better under pressure
{or so i always tell myself....}

i said i would decide by tonight,
yet i am still on the fence.
sigh.
do i just go for it...
say the hell with it...
bite the bullet...
run for home...
see what happens?

or do i stay on safe...

{and in my heart, i keep thinking
mondo beyondo, this was going to be your year...
you should be jumping at this...}

friday i'm in love....


and things are coming around...
i'm feeling better...some of the issues
i talked about earlier are starting to
fade {but not gone...sadly}

but i have to start digging myself
out of this hole that i have let myself
get too comfortable in....

so.

friday i'm in love...
~with the feeling of finally starting to get
caught up again...on photos, on email, on
housework, on drs appts and bills...

~with this movie...

~with what we had for supper last night...

~with letting go and accepting that everything
not only does not have to be perfect
all the time, but it is most like NOT going to
be perfect all the time...let go. let go. let go.
{and that it is OK to let go...}