friday i'm in love!

it is funny
how all summer
i felt like maybe i had exhausted my blog
and had nothing left to say
but then september came
and suddenly,
i am foaming at the mouth
to get back on here...
wanting to talk about things
i have read, i have heard, i have watched...

it's a good feeling.

and an equally good feeling
is the "good-mail-day" feeling...

not so long ago,
i made a guess at the number of buttons
in a jar on one of my favorite blogs...
a pitiful guess, but a guess nonetheless.

i didn't guess right,
but i did win a prize though...
for this
"And, I have decided that the person who guessed the smallest amount, a number that just had me giggling a bit, also wins a prize. And yes, my dear, that would be you gk girl."

teehee....

and then,
this came! i am so in love...with the colors, the inside pocket,
the cutecutecute fabric! and squeeeee! a cute little notebook
tucked inside!



and a little teaser of liz's beeeeeautiful card...because i think she hinted
to them but has not blogged them yet and i don't want to take that away from her,
but it was just too scrummy to leave out of the shot!

thanks liz! i love it!

i cried.

these are the last pictures that i will
have to take with my sucky but trusty-easy-compact
kodak easyshare.

for my birthday,
my husband bought me this
fuji finepix s700
(and i feel like a bit of a fraud for
even naming this camera because
it makes me sound like i know something about it...
which i don't)
(but hope to)
(soon)

i was so excited
that i cried a little.

we never make a big deal out of birthdays
or gifts or anniversaries...
we just do what we can at the time...
but this...

and generally,
he can never surprise me.

but this...

this was a surprise
of the best kind.

on sunday, we just packed the kids up and drove...
down dirt roads and over wooden bridges
through brambled-over paths
and on hidden shorelines
just so i could use the camera....

i am so in love.
(and i am not necessarily talking about the camera)
(although, the camera is loved also)

tuesday musings....

first of all,
before anything else...
i want to say
that i woke up with the
heaviness of the date
on my mind
and my heart goes out to all
who have been touched
in any way by the past events
of this sad date.

and...
actually...
i was going to show my
birthday present
(which i am SO excited about)
but somehow,
after saying that...
it doesn't feel right.

it feels as though
i should wait
and do that another day.

and so,
i will.

(but i do want to say thank you for
the sweet birthday wishes...)

this blog is being brought to you today by the number 37.

today
i am 37.

because 2007 subtract 1970
equals
37.

years.

i am ok with my age...
because i don't feel any age...
or rather,
i feel a different age every day...
it is squiggly and indeterminable and
liquid, this idea of age...
what is it really?

and why the power?

the number of years, the accumulation of days,
the markings scratched onto the wall of my life
proving that i was here?
but i am here.

regardless of my age.

which is 37.

today.