i am typing
but i feel at though i should be napping.

this morning was particularly stressful
and tiring and emotionally exhausting.

it is hard when you beleive in what you are doing
and you know that in order to have the big picture
that you want
you need to do some things right now
that seem mean and cold and not necessary.

but they are necessary...
in the long run...
in the scope of the big picture.

and it is harder still
to watch someone that you have come to care about,
even though you have been cautioned
to "keep a professional distance and a work
relationship",
cry out of sadness, frustration and discomfort...

so
all in all
the morning kind of sucked
even though it felt as though
there was a breakthrough in the end.

and now i am tired.