i guess
the weather is not all
that is dragging heavily over me,
weighing me down,
making me sad,
listless,
quiet.

my brother
who has been living with us
on and off
(but mostly on)
for about ten years
is moving far away.

he leaves tomorrow.

all week
i have felt increasingly
silent...
void...
and i blamed it on pms
and i blamed it on rain

but the truth of the matter is
everytime i think
about him going,
about him being gone,
my face starts to twist toward tears...

so...
that's that.