i am following the plans and prompts and exercises on

loving it...

truly loving it.

although i am feeling pre-wedding photography jitters

as i have my first wedding

for this season on saturday

and i am not ready for easter

and feel overwhelmed and

just a little skittery-scattery-all-over-the-place

also

just trying to take a deep breath

and

be here...be steady...be slow

be patient with my own thoughts.

so tonight,

i tried an exercise she suggested

and although i was afraid i was not going to be able to settle

and that it was not going to happen tonight

i ended up being

extremely happy with what came out of it...

i'm not sure if this is a

or if it is, in fact, finished...but here it is regardless.

we asked you to pick up the tires

you had scattered

all over the lawn

{once again, we are the neighbors

no one wants to know}

{they avoid us when they go door to door

selling their goddamned girl guide cookies}.

this morning, i looked out

and saw that you had built

an inukshuk of sorts

from 3 car tires

with an old metal chair

you had rescued from the side of the road

perched proudly on top

like a totem...

like a love note...

to me.

and i carry it in my heart.

sooc