It is sunday afternoon
and I am sitting on my deck
in the sun
still wearing my orange & white
creamsicle pajamas
listening to music
playing from the neighbors yard
and feeling the wind
ruffling through leaves.

A baseball game is being played down the street.

I am not thinner...my hair
is piled up in a messy knot
on top of my head
and the laundry is piling up.
the bills we owe still make me
hyperventilate
and the car needs gas....

but in this moment
I am happy.
I am full of happy.