tuesday truths {the "winter makes me bitter" edition}
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i hate being cheated
out of the promise of a good storm day.
i love a good storm day.
what is the point of living in a place
with bitter cold winters
if you can't get a good storm day once in a while.
and today...i felt cheated.
i'm still bitter.
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i am failing spectacularly
at almost
all
of my new years resolutions...
ALREADY.
it's been so long since i have been to the gym,
i think i forget where it is.
i am existing on diet coke and mike and ikes.
no sauna.
no board games.
no eating healthier.
sigh.
winter does this to me.
i just want to wrap myself in
layers of fuzzy blankets
and sleep
until the sun comes out...
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i may have created a new playlist
consisting of mainly power ballads
and one country song
at 3 am the other night
when i couldn't sleep...
tuesday truths....(it is tuesday, right?)
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i got to work today
and realized
i had my shirt on
inside out.
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i
seriously
am not able to ever
cook the
right amount of
potatoes.
i always always always cook too many.
tonight i thought
"i'll fix you" (um...to myself)
and i used a smaller pot
AND THEN COULD BARELY FIT
all the potatoes into it
and now it just completely
boiled over
and i had to move it to a bigger pot.
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i went to a writer's group on saturday.
i hadn't planned on reading
the short story i had written for battle tales there
but a good friend
coaxed me into it...
i was totally nervous.
the table was silent as i read...
and i was reading it off my phone
(tiny print)
so couldn't really look around to gauge reactions
or to see if people were still awake
so
when i got to one pivotal part in the story
and the librarian
literally
cheered
YES!
with her hands in the air
it was both shocking and
so frigging fantastic....
it is such a satisfying perplexing incredible feeling
to think that you evoked
enough emotion in
someone
to make them
cheer
in a
library.
(and honestly...it makes you want to do it again and again.)
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and yeah.
i'm still editing photos from the fall.
friday i'm in love...
and yeah. i am still totally editing photos from the fall. i'm a procrastinator.
♥ with the Pocket feature. It's an easy way to bookmark/save things that interest you and it recommends other items for you based on your activity which I know creeps some people out but I kinda like. Plus I have the Pocket app on my phone so I can easily save things for my blog when I am out and about. :)
♥ this article on journalling...which I was totally going to do more of this year. And started off strong! But have faltered a little. I blame winter. And dark mornings. And cold that sucks the ever loving energy out of me. (Please see this same reason in relation to why I have not been going to the gym).
♥ i have been rewatching friends from the beginning. And I have been loving it. I will never get tired of that show. And it was exciting to realize that I might have been watching an episode that I HAD NEVER SEEN BEFORE.
♥ and speaking of high quality tv shows...have you seen this??? oh my little 80's heart.
♥ did you ever read an article and wonder how the author wrote about your life...the title alone says it all in this case... A Case for Trying (Really) Hard to Make Friends as an Adult ...
♥ life goals...what i want to be when i grow up
♥ oh my heart. Can i grow this in my backyard this year? I did manage to make sunflowers last year.
♥ and since i am gushing about beautiful things that i wish that i had created....
and not really part of friday i'm in love
but i did something today that i was
pretty proud of
and in all honesty
terrified the everloving hell out of me
as well.
i wrote a short story
and submitted it to an annual contest
that our local writer's guild holds
called Battle Tales.
they give you 3 prompts and an allowance
of 2500 words or less
and a week to write a short story and submit
and
for once in my life
i said i was going to do something
AND I DID IT.
i submitted the story tonight
and promptly felt like vomiting as soon as i hit
submit.
but i did it. no matter what happens, i followed through
and finished something for once
when it comes to writing...
i sent it to a friend whose opinion i take very seriously.
we tend to like the same writers and although she is my best friend
she is also brutally honest....
she sent me a message the next morning that said
"this is fucking dynamite. submit it."
:) :) :) :) :)
i literally wanted to print that out & wear it on a tshirt, it made me so happy.
so...keep your fingers crossed for me...
but no matter what happens, i'm happy that i made it
as far as the submit button...
it's good to put yourself out there sometimes
and see what happens,
even if it does make you feel like vomiting momentarily.
(that actually might be a sign that you are
moving in the right direction).
a winter friday adventure...(you know the drill...there will be many pictures)
i don't normally do winter friday adventures
because
let's face it...
i'm a bit of a cold weather pansy.
but it was mild on friday...
like bizarrely unusually mild.
i should have gone to the gym
and caught up on laundry
and cleaned the house
but instead
i put on my turkey socks and purple docs
grabbed my camera
and went for a drive.
yeah...i wasn't kidding about the turkey socks.
i ended up in cavendish...at the beach...
which is weird
because i rarely go to that beach
in the summer
but there i was...in the middle of winter...
and i had a small panic attack
as i walked out onto one of the floating bridges
and then thought
what if you are not supposed to be on these in the winter
and i can't swim in warm water
so i am surely to gawd going to drown in freezing cold water
but then thought
they would
probably
put up a sign or something....
so then i calmed down
and enjoyed myself again...had the whole place to myself...
until i started wondering if coyotes hibernate.
sigh.
it's exhausting living in my head.
but...here are some photos that i took
before my heart started skipping a beat
thinking coyotes could be lurking
in a pack
just
around that corner.
and then i went to charlottetown
because honestly
i got lost and sidetracked and at one point
thought i was driving
back to summerside
but i was actually driving in the opposite direction
and ended up in charlottetown
so i turned a negative into a positive
and went to Micheal's! and i had a gift card! with me!
i bought this jane davenport book on drawing/painting
that i have been drooling over forever
and my very first set of koi watercolors...
AND i got the CUTEST polka dot dress at old navy for 15 dollars.
ok...yes...i know.
one can possibly own too many polka dot dresses...
but...
i'm not there yet, right?
all in all...it was a very good friday adventure...even if it was stupid winter... :)