the happiness
and relief that i felt yesterday
has
been replaced
by feelings of worry
and anxiety
and "am i making the right choice?"
and "can we afford it?"

always followed by
"but can i afford not to, healthwise? mentalwise?"
because my current job is killing me...

all this precipitated by
an innocent comment by my husband...
a slight expression of concern...
"can we do it"
and suddenly,
the floodgates of
anxiety and stress and second-guessing
opened up
and
now,
i am confused.

do i stay or do i go.