december views

i'm struggling this month
to keep
all the balls
in the air.

the new job is great
but the drive is kind of killing me,
bad weather today
making for treacherous driving
making for a migraine
by the time i got home...

i feel like i am spread
so thin
like barely formed ice
liable to crack
under the slightest
of pressure.

and yet,
the tree is up
and i keep finding
hand-drawn itemized
christmas lists
from 9
and this week are christmas
concerts
and my brother comes home tomorrow!

and
if i stop and remember
i will see that
i also felt this way
last year...

and that i held together
under
the pressure...