tonight i take my first
photos
of people
that are not part of my
family...

and i'm nervous...
sick-to-my-stomach
don't-feel-ready
nervous...

i was going to write about the potato salad
and marinated bbq chicken i am making for supper...
or about the great photos i got on my
5 am sunday morning drive...
or how 13 kicked butt on her band trip
(and i only cried for a moment as she left the driveway
to be gone for two nights this year)

but instead...
i've got butterflies in my belly...