I am feeling a little…
indecisive
lately
which is bad timing
because I also feel like
I have a lot of decisions
to make right now…
and I feel like
I’m spinning my wheels
on ice
and not really
getting any traction….
just a lot of noise & slush kicking up.
And it feels like
each of these
decisions
seem to domino affect
another decision or
create another thing to think about.
Here’s a small sampling of the
chaotic mess happening on repeat in my brain
since my dryer broke:
I could get it fixed…
is it worth getting it fixed, it’s second hand to start with…
could if I fix it myself,
I watched some youtube videos…
I just need a multimeter maybe…and possibly a screwdriver…
but then I need whatever part/fuse it is if that’s even what’s wrong.
I could get a new dryer but if the
dryer vent needs to be cleaned & that’s what broke this dryer
then I need to do that first
unless I clean it myself (which has now been ruled out) OR
I could get a ventless dryer because then
I don’t have to worry about cleaning vent AND
it will fit into that tight space I am working with
but it is more expensive and doesn’t hold as much clothes
(do I need it to hold much…I mean eventually it will just be me here)
(which then causes momentary existential panic
about how I might always be alone and makes me
wonder if I should be taking dating more seriously again
but do I really want to date and how do I fit someone into my life
after this long and mostly I think I’m happy but do I just think
I’m happy cause that’s easier then letting anyone else in
and creates a whole new set of dilemmas)
OR i could get a new washer and dryer for about the same price
as the ventless dryer (but get the vent cleaned first)
and also I think I might need a plumber to tell me
why the sink gurgles when the washer drains
so maybe I should just get a new dryer for now
but should I get a ventless one or maybe
I can just fix my dryer.
but if I get a new washer/dryer,
maybe I should just bite the bullet and get a stove too
(cause, you know, oven pliers)
and if I did that, I should replace the counter top
with a butcher block like I saw on the youtube video,
that didn’t look hard, I just need a saw…and some glue…
but then that would mean the backsplash too
and the sink should be replaced…
and that makes me think of the gurgle again…
and plumbers and maybe I should get a heat pump…
OR maybe I should just get a clothesline.
true story. :)