friday i'm in love...(& weirdly not an Easter version...)
I love a long weekend. ♥
I feel a distinct push/pull
in my life this week.
One minute I am hyper focused,
the next I am floundering
around panicking about ants
(so far there have only been a few
but it doesn’t take much to push me to panic mode),
attic pigeons, low oil level in tank
and hoping it will come in time,
and wondering why I can’t keep on top of
literally ANYTHING.
This will pass. I know it will.
Maybe it’s the moon as one friend suggested.
Maybe it’s just hormones.
Maybe it’s just who I am. :)
I am always surprised
to keep learning things about myself
to be honest.
I mean…it seems strange to be surprised
at this stage of the game…
But I recently listened
to a woman talking about her
struggle with depression, anxiety,
adhd and OCD tendencies.
She talked about
how her method/thought process
for laundry sorting
became key to realizing that she
had some level of OCD.
I sort my laundry
the
exact same
way.
and thought that EVERYONE did.
Not that it necessarily means anything
one way or the other,
but it just
surprised me…& made me think…
the things we consider quirks or strategies
may be seen as signs or symptoms of something else
and you just never even considered the idea
because you assumed everyone did it the same
or thought the same or reacted the same or
whatever…
Being a person is interesting. :)
THINGS I AM LOVING:
♥ sunshine & longer days (even it is bringing the ants out)
♥ i finished daisy jones and the six and IT SO DID NOT DISAPPOINT!!!!
♥ i am totally drooling over this sofa.
♥ rewatching the office with my girl. she loves dwight & angela but just love jim and pam.
♥ seeing the kids on my street out playing all day…scooters and bikes and stopping by to pet pugsley…and ask if i know i still have my christmas decorations up….and halloween, too. Heehee. :)
♥ i watched this last night…while home alone….which i will tell you now was not a good time to watch it but it was very, very good.
♥ and april is national poetry month…here you go.
and here’s a doodle of a fruit bowl…just because. :)
friday i'm in love...
and it’s friday again.
this week flew by.
i spent a lot of time in the office
instead of working from home
which has it’s own set of pros and cons.
mostly it was a very busy week.
but i got to go for
a beautiful evening beach walk
with a friend
and saw the sunset…
and spent an evening at the
community school banquet
and that was so fun.
if you have not tried community school,
you totally should.
it was a great way to get out of the house
one night a week in the dreaded depths of winter
which is when i really struggle to
connect with people…
i learned a little macrame, had a lot of laughs
and got to enjoy a rousing sing a long
of “wasn’t that a party” at the banquet…
(along with delicious lemon pie)
and won a cat hammock bed! :)
{sidenote:: it’s amazing that your
brain will remember every single word
and inflection of a song you haven’t heard
in decades}
FRIDAY I’M IN LOVE::
♥ oh my heart….i love all of these.
♥ i have read this over and over.
♥ this was mesmerizing…his hair.
♥ my latest IPSY haul
♥ my perpetual candy jar
♥ some time spent at the little blue desk experimenting
happy spring even though we
came into it with a bit of a storm
and a fresh a layer of snow all over…
but the days are brighter and longer
and maybe a touch warmer.
that’s enough for me. ♥
thinking out loud...looking for balance
Happy Saturday morning.
It’s been a sweet, quiet start to the day
for me…
just the way I like it.
I feel like this post
is going to be all over the place
as my brain feels a little scattered today,
jumping from one thought
to another,
with very little cohesiveness holding it all together.
Bear with me.
I had my tarot cards read last week
(seriously, if you haven’t done this,
go see this girl…so worth it!)
and she hit on a few things that resonated with me…
she said that balance seemed to be showing up
as a predominant theme in my cards.
This is true.
And she brought up creativity, the desire to
do more in this area of my life, the struggle
to not only make the time for it
but to also
let myself go…
to take myself seriously, to really sink into something.
My nature seems to be to
skim of the surface of things
but when they start to really work,
abandon them and move on to something else.
Part of me would write it off to an attention issue…
a scattery brain, all over the map
but I also know that part of it is fear.
If I take it seriously, then failure is a possibility.
If I say I am just “playing” then I have no accountability….
no expectation…it also soothes the side of me
that struggles with “who do you think you are?
what makes you think you can do this?
You doodle. You play. Grow up. This is not for you.”
This has been a common strategy in
more than one area in my life.
And I know it. I accept it even.
Hell. I embrace it.
Anyway, this is all to say that between
the messages I heard in the tarot cards,
and the fact that I have gotten some of the bigger “grown up things”
sorted out paired with the happiness of the days
slowly getting longer,
all of this makes me feel
ready to dive back into
the creative side…however that decides to show up…
and to make time for it, find that balance,
give it space to be serious if it wants…
but still fun.
I hope this sunny Saturday finds you
happy and content…
♥
tuesday truths ♥♥♥ and a hint of happy mail surprise/contest
It has been a minute
but my little geeky girl mini-muse
has finally decided
to come back and visit…
Not gonna lie
the truth is
I was getting a little worried…
I thought I might have scared her off
for good.
But she has been peeking
around the corners
and I have seen her shadow
every now and then
but then she’d scurry off
and probably hide
behind the couch
wrapped up in a blanket
eating all the cookies.
Anyway…she’s back.
And she said she had an idea…
it was a little bit hard to understand
because she was whispering
and her mouth was full of cookies
but I think this is the gist of it…
happy mail
makes
people
happy.
I love getting something in the mail
that is not a bill or a flyer or a bill.
So many bills. Blech.
And then I did the Ipsy thing
and that was so much fun
and then I did the chef’s plate thing
and that was so much fun
and I realized that I really, really like
happy mail
and maybe
me and my little geeky girl mini muse
could make someone else
happy
when they open their mailbox
and not cross-cranky-curse-y
like I sometimes get.
And the truth is
I like just making random things…
doodles, scribbles, cards, notes…
I like little toys and post it notes
and fortune cookies and
teeny-tiny love letters…
paper dolls and photographs…
soooo
here’s my plan…
I am going to make two
happy-mail-packages.
One to give away, and maybe one
someone can buy
if anyone has any interest in that
kind of thing…
and if not, then it will be two to
giveaway!
Stay tuned for the details…
we haven’t quite decided on
the contest logistics yet….
we’ll be able to concentrate
better after the
cookies are all gone.
♥♥♥
