things that i learned in june...

July 23, 2013 gkgirl

expensive (and i use the term expensive lightly here because i am cheap, therefore, my expensive could be another person's cheap...but still) expensive underwear...totally worth the splurge.
tomato plants on the deck make me enormously happy

that some days your body just says "that's enough" and shuts down for the day (or two) with a very cranky headache
that i absolutely love berries in a salad
that it is good to say yes (yes to driving an hour away to see the skydiggers play even though you are shooting a wedding the next day...yes, yes, yes!)

that i couldn't be normal in a photo no matter how hard i try...and maybe that is it...i try too hard. evidenced in the skydigger photos above in which i am both very perplexed and then very freaked out. but that's ok. see next point.
that you should never assume what people think of you...and when you do find out what someone thinks of you...try not to take it the wrong way....take it in the way that you know that it was meant...that you are quirky. and that's ok. because...really...you probably are quirky. Which is not the worst thing you can be

i don't have any more points but i can't figure out how to erase this last bullet.

now.
go here
and play along...
even if it is now the middle of july...
:)

Moments

July 21, 2013 gkgirl

It is sunday afternoon
and I am sitting on my deck
in the sun
still wearing my orange & white
creamsicle pajamas
listening to music
playing from the neighbors yard
and feeling the wind
ruffling through leaves.

A baseball game is being played down the street.

I am not thinner...my hair
is piled up in a messy knot
on top of my head
and the laundry is piling up.
the bills we owe still make me
hyperventilate
and the car needs gas....

but in this moment
I am happy.
I am full of happy.

summer is getting away from me....

July 15, 2013 gkgirl

i am trying to get here,
really,
i am...
i plan on what i am going to write,
i take photos with my blog in mind...
i have things i want to post for inner excavation
and other things i want to take part in
but...

this has turned out to be the busiest summer
i
have
ever
had
as far as the photography business goes.

i have 17 weddings booked between June and October.
i have already done 5 of them
which means
i am working on editing 5 weddings and a family session
finished two engagement sessions
have another wedding this weekend

i currently have about ten thousand photos to be edited...
and so many more to come.

that gets a little
overwhelming.

but in a great way...a great, great way!

but still...i am not getting here.
not as much as i would like.

this moment::

July 7, 2013 gkgirl

at this moment,
i have made a conscious decision
to put away the housework,
place a hold on the editing,
forget about what my hair looks like
and that my stomach is far too flabby for a bathing suit.

i am going to get in my car
and drive to my favorite beach
and bury my toes in the sand
and maybe read a real book
(not taking the ipad).

i am not going to wear headphones,
i am going to listen to the water
and the seagulls
and the kids laughing and splashing
in the distance.

i will lay on a blanket
and inhale a little bit of a salt water summer day...

i might even dip my toes in the water.