is it ever going to stop snowing?

snow today,
snow tomorrow....
it's enough to make a sane girl cry.

i took a drive on saturday...
15 wanted to go see his friend
{who happens to be a girl}
so i put my camera in the passenger seat
and after i dropped him off
at his friend's
{who happens to be girl}
i allowed myself to get lost
on back country roads...

when i picked him up
he told me that they made their own version
of "burger love" at home
and that he helped with the spinach
(i am certain my boy has never seen spinach
before in his life, other than in a popeye cartoon
i am not sure that i have ever seen spinach...).

and i marveled at how they grow up
instantly
right before your very eyes.

the light was perfect as we drove home...
15 picked the music (nirvana for the most part, fine by me)
and i asked him at every stop sign
right?  left?  straight?
let's just get lost.
and the sweet thing is he totally put up with it...
even when i stopped the car
multiple times
to lay in the ditch and take photos
of farms
reflected in mud puddles.

i'm a lucky girl.
 

things i am loving RIGHT NOW....

my new fitbit flex::
I desperately want to get back on track with some weight loss
and i absolutely love this little gadget!  Tracks my steps and my sleep
and syncs with other apps (my fitness pal is my favorite calorie counter).

spending time with my family::
my little brother is turning 40 and there was a surprise party for him tonight...
nights like this make me realize that we don't make time for this enough...
and that i would like to start taking more video.  :)


Google Play Music::
are you telling me that for 9.99 a month I can listen to any music I want...
on my phone or my computer...so easy.  I am becoming a big fan.
they had leslie spitt treeo...i'm sold.

 
 

 

hello, 2014! please be my friend...


happy new years!
2014 has arrived
with snow and sunshine
and little bits of frozen breath
in every breath you take.

christmas has passed us in a flurry of 
ripped wrapping paper
and meat pies...
the highlights included shopping with both my parents,
which i never, ever have done before...
my dad avoids the stores like the plague
but this year, he came along and it. was. so. much. fun.
you have to know my dad to really get it,
but he is easily amused, entertained, bewildered and intrigued
by
everything...
and he is loud...and short...and full of energy...and adorable
and always, always happy.
 

and now, 2014 is upon us.
usually, i have to think about my word
and contemplate and consider and weigh the options
but not this year.
this year
it was apparent
it was obvious...
this year, my word chose me.
i need to find balance in my life.
i need to find a way to make all the little pieces
fit together in some sort of cohesive fashion.

so,
welcome 2014...
i look forward to getting to know you better
and i hope that you have good things in store for us all!

happy Canada Day...a little late!!





the past four days have been awesomely exhausting...
we have:
spent a full day preparing for and enjoying Canada Day festivities,
torn apart, switched and painted two bedrooms,
got 14's tongue pierced,
attended a family barbeque,
did a photo session at the beach and by a graffiti wall,
ate fast food way too much,
drew maple leafs in marker on 14's eyelids,
made family cds for the long drives,
slept restlessly in new rooms,
tripped over books and clothes stacked in the hallway,
chilled on the couch eating creamsicles,
laughed hard and loud and at inappropriate times...

it was a great weekend...
and now we are back to monday
and i wish i could take a little of this past weekend
and keep it in my pocket
so i could take it out every now and then
and be there again...

Happy Canada Day
{and Happy 4th, too!!}

the halfway point.


wow...april has really kicked my ass as far as poems go.

as far as anything goes really.

but...
i'm back to work today after a 5 day break
including wakes and funerals and
trying to hold it together and
make your dad laugh
when you know he is trying so hard
not to cry in front of you
and no matter how many times
you say it's ok to cry
you know he won't break down in front of you
but the sweetness of that second
when he held your hand tight
and walked across the parking lot of the church
{when was the last time i held hands
with my father...i'm not sure i know}

but now
life as normal
or as normal as usual...
goes on all the same...