wow.

this
has been an amazing summer…
like
seriously amazing.

which is hard for me to say
on one hand
because i missed my dad
ferociously
and that caused a lot of
confusing push/pull of emotions
but i assume that is to be expected…
you know you can’t stay where you were
but it’s effing hard to move forward.

the one thing
that does make it tolerable…
or at least helps make it all make
a tiny bit of sense
is knowing that
dad
would have loved hearing
about everything that happened this summer.

that i know for sure….
i know he is cheering me on…as he always has…
pushing me to go and do the things…
ALL the things.

so i did them.

beaches, bonfires, fireworks,
doughnuts, kruffins, ice cream sundaes,
billy idol!!
grew tomatoes, bought a swing,
went to the air show not just once, but twice!!
FINALLY replaced my front door,
climbed every big rock that was in my path,
watched meteor showers,
laughed hard and loud,
sang songs with lines that made me think of him,
told stories about him every
chance i got,
said yes to motorcycle rides
and got to sit in a transfer truck,
looked for sunflower fields, kayaked,
and watched the truck and tractor pulls…

it was an amazing summer…
and it’s not even over yet.

but it is september so
that brings me back to the blog
and to the little blue desk
back to making lists and plans,
blueprints and notes,
scribbles and scrabbles…

i was away from here for a long time…
but
it feels good to be back.
🥰

it's been a bit of an odd summer...

my brain doesn’t
quite know
what it wants
to do…
i mean, let’s be honest,
it never really does.
it’s always been
a bit of a fickle pickle
of a brain
bouncing about
like a frenzied rubber ball
going this way and that…

but lately…

it’s bouncing between
really really up and
let’s buy groceries
cause we are gonna cook things
and let’s refinish furniture
and go places
and start jogging
and maybe write a book
while also repainting the
living room…

and really really down
where i can’t get out of my own way…
tonight i had to put an oil treatment
in my hair
just to ensure that i didn’t go to bed
at 6:30…cause
that’s what i really wanted to do.

and at the same time,
i feel like summer is rushing by
in a flash of rain clouds
and scattered thundershowers
and i haven’t camped yet,
i haven’t gone away,
i haven’t had a bonfire or gone to the drive in
and i feel panicky
and then that makes me tired
so i go to bed
at 6:30.

this will pass.
i think.
i hope.
i just need some deep breaths
and sunshine
and maybe a doughnut.

or a nap.

a perfectly perfect long weekend....

this weekend
had a little bit of
everything
i could want
in a long weekend.

Trails, beaches,
a little bit of family time,
some productive time
around the house -
lawn cut and whippersnipped,
house cleaned up,
pop tent moved to a it’s new location…

Sunburns, fireworks,
fresh strawberries,
lemon sugary donuts,
new headphones,
blogging in bed,
fans full blast,
reading books every chance I get
and trying to
absorb every second of this weekend.

As I write this I am 100% happy
but also exhausted
and wondering if 7:30 is too early for bed….
cause it’s definitely
too late for a nap
and I still have one day of this
sweet long weekend left.

I hope your weekend
was full of all the
little things that
make you smile.
♥

a little mini-stay-cation

I have been off since last Thursday…
and I feel like I have made the most of those days.

Supper with the girls
at Island Stone Pub Wednesday night…
beach day with an old friend
Thursday in Cavendish
then supper on the boardwalk
at Poutine Plus where
I got to see some old friends
that always makes me happy
and an adorable little 3 year old came
and sat with us to eat her food…
then a walk on the Summerside boardwalk
to finish off the day…

Friday was Canada Day
and I was sunburned and
kinda missing how when the
kids were little
and we’d all spend Canada Day
together…
but I decided to do the
Homestead Trail in Cavendish
with the additional MacNeill Loop
so…10 kms.
I had a little rest/nap on one
of the benches partway through…
heh.

Friday night was fireworks
in Charlottetown…
which I think I might have sat
directly UNDERNEATH…
but still pretty enjoyable
plus I got to hear Fabulously Rich
and glad that I went
even if I went all by myself….

Saturday was trying out the new
car tent…which I love!
Attempting a walk but the
thunder rolled in
so spent some time at a beach
reading and eating fresh strawberries…
Saturday night, I went to the
movies all by myself to see
the new Minions movie in 3D…
and I am so glad I pushed out of
my comfort zone to do that.

Sunday was spent
early morning setting up
at the beach with
my little beach tent
and a radio
and a book…
some friends came by
and hung out for a bit
just before another
thunder storm rolled in…
I got the tent down literally
just - in - the - nick - of - time.

And I still have one day of vacation left :)

summer lovin'

i have not been here
very much this summer...

it's hard to make myself come in the house
and type at the computer
when it is so hot and sunny and pretty outside.

summer goes by far too fast.

i find myself panicking as the days
turn into august,
feeling like summer
is slipping through my fingers
like sand
and i want to grab it tight
and fill my pockets
and my shoes,
i want to store it, savor it, hoard it.

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i want to make it last forever.

so i haven't been here much
but i've been writing blog posts
in my head
and taking photos
with the big camera and the little one (my phone)...
i've been reading books
and eating ice cream and taking long walks,
finding new beaches
and driving down endless dirt roads.

hello august.
i am going to try really hard not to think of you
as the end...
but instead, i'm going to try to soak up as much summer
as i can and not stress about the passing of the days.

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